Sneaky Grin

A chilled 57* and that beautiful Cheshire cat moon grins from 250 thousand miles up…

Snug under the covers, sipping on a steaming mug of BlackBerry cinnamon tea and listening to Home is Such a Lonely Place by Blink 182 while jotting down thought after thought on these blue lines…

Hoppus sings the line, “this universe an empty place without you…” which triggers your image to pop into my mind. I don’t even know you, yet those above words rings true like violin strings playing in the background…

Nights have been spent staying away from the Sandman, no zzzz’s equals no dreams. These dreams these past months have been nothing short of bittersweet. This comatose vision of you and me is sweet. The way you look at me, your eyes piercing right past my disorder, my scars. What most choose not to see past, you have made glow. For all you see is who I truly am at my core. Your eyes are beautiful and that smile of yours, damn your handsome…

Then Sunshine Riptide begins to play, signaling my cue to get up, outta bed and face the world. In that moment of that first morning stretch the realization that these dreams are ones that aren’t meant to come true is so bitter…

Tonight…tonight I think I’ll try and catch a few of those notorious zzz’s. If a dream of you sneaks in, then that’s just the bright red cherry on top. Besides, these days I need a little sweetness…

Mmmm, this tea is pretty tasty and how I do love that luminous sneaky grin moon.

I want you forever even when we’re not together… -Machine Gun Kelly

All I Want

These songs bring back memories of magic and childhood smiles…

These sweet reminiscent smells swirling in the kitchen make my tastebuds happy…

These sparkling lights send their glowing contentment straight to my heart, causing my mind to never let go of the magic that this season holds…

These twinkling stars studded in the frosty sky speak to my past scars, a message to never give up on wishing for what my heart deeply dreams of…

These movies conjure up a cheerful grin and nostalgic laughter…

This season shakes up a mix of hope, love and inspiration that I will always drink in…

I just want you for my own, more than you could ever know. Make my wish come true, Baby all I want for Christmas is you… -Mariah Carey

Waves

A moment or two is what this soul of mine needs…

A helpful hint is what my mind searches for…

A dose of guidance is what my heart prays for…

The day has switched places with the night and the sun has sunken into the glowing atmosphere.

Hoodie on..crisp breeze kissing the goosebumps on my neck..the warm sands cooling down…

Eyes closed..deep breath..and listen…

Dear waves, help me out here. I need advice, I can’t shake this feeling let alone understand why this feeling ever came into existence. I’ve exhausted every idea as to how to let this feeling go, every lightbulb has burnt out trying to ignore this. A feeling that is unknown territory for my heart and mind. So, I ask waves…what do I do?

I just need a moment or two.

The softest echo could be enough for me to make it through… -Twenty One Pilots

Cocoa & Mini Marshmallows

Here we are again…Sunday mood…

I know your insides are feeling so hollow
And it’s a hard pill for you to swallow, yeah
But if I fall for you, I’ll never recover
If I fall for you, I’ll never be the same
I really wanna love somebody
I really wanna dance the night away
You’re such a hard act for me to follow
Love me today don’t leave me tomorrow, yeah
But if I fall for you, I’ll never recover
If I fall for you, I’ll never be the same…” -Maroon 5

Lantern

I woke up with this feeling of wanting today to already end, but time spent with family and wishes from friends made my heart glow, my face crack a cheerful grin and my veins flood with gratefulness…

The Cali sun warmed these Autumn skies as a trip to the coffee shop soothed my thoughts…

Today, a day that’s not labeled as my favorite, turned out lovely…

These skies are fire orange, luminous as the sun tucks itself in for the night. A chill night indulgent in Chinese cuisine and a few favorite shows…

The 10:10 moment is nearing, the moon beautiful as always and a single star peering out a touch brighter. I take a deep breath, look up and pray my silent prayer. One day I hope I find you because while I’d wait forever for you, my soul is growing weary…

Now here I am, another year older and even a bit wiser. This day is done, the night air is calmingly crisp. A little music, a little writing, a little chestnut praline latte (tis the season) and a little thinking about you…

Sleep on me, feel the rhythm in my chest, just breathe. I will stay so the lantern in your heart won’t fade… -Jon Bellion