Slow Motion

Time… it’s the ultimate thief, stealing our minutes continuously and without remorse. Usually, it’s theft is rapid to a point where blinking may cause you to miss something. Yet, the last couple of months have seemed to switch gears. June and July were captured on video and edited to create a slow motion cut…

You’d think that anyone who noticed the speed change would marvel in it, but there I was confused and a bit grumpy. The slowly dwindling days made me feel extremely off, too many days feeling weird, my soul feeling unusual rather than rare…

Two months of becoming organized and accustomed to this new town, still feeling like an odd puzzle piece missing its puzzle. Two months without a single word written or a single book read. My routine is splattered all over. I’m trying to stay within the glow of the moon, but bits and pieces are trying to sneak themselves into the darkness…

I think this increment of slow motion is a lesson and I just didn’t want to pay attention, let alone learn from it. Here I am trying to fit in, trying to be whatever everyone needs. I need to find and re-implement my routine, my schedule, my self care…

I know that a tiny part of me will always find its way to the darkness (it’soddly comforting), but the majority of me needs to stay with the glow…

I love standing out, being my own rare creature. I love my golden heart and mechanical mind…

So, my apologies to you Father Time, it took me longer than it should’ve, but lesson now being learned. No matter your speed, I will appreciate every minute given…

Summer is ending, Autumn is nearing. I know this because that certain something is changing inside, it’s slowly feeling the magic…

So, coffee will sipped.. hoodies worn.. words written a plenty.. books enjoyed and the coming seasons soaked in. A grin is sneakily making an appearance on my face and in my heart.

I wanna live life fast, I don’t know how to slow down
Wanna get high, I don’t know how to come down
Help me now, I’m runnin’ on empty
And I don’t wanna be a memory…” -Kane Brown ft. Blackbear

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