Always on the B Side 🖤

We met…you followed and I followed back..

A few hearts, comments and retweets were exchanged. Then flirty emojis and quips…

I didn’t think anything of it, my brain doesn’t automatically go to the “I’m being flirted with” mode… past experiences made my mind too cautious to notice certain signs right off the bat…

Then, my mind went into subconscious gear, a dream of you…much different than the usual…

You were asking me why I was pulling back… I replied that I didn’t know how to date you. Villains, yeah, I’m used to them…but, you were a true blue good guy…

“I’ll mess it up” swam pass my lips…you looked at me with a look I’d never seen before as you placed your hands on my cheeks…”I won’t let you, don’t worry.” fell from your mouth…

In a strange way that dream gave me a weird confidence boost and I began to think that maybe there’s something there…

Take a chance, why not…

Then, like a flip of the switch, the flirting stopped…the likes and comments haulted…

Not sure why, but I’m pretty sure it’s because of me…

Maybe I said something, maybe it’s just because I’m too…I don’t know…

I wish I didn’t care so much, but my brain doesn’t function that way…

Just when I felt gutsy…the universe said “Nope!”…

“I used to be a shooting star, when did I become so dark…” -Blackbear

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