Band-aid on a Gunshot Wound

You and I, changing our worlds one chapter at a time, dreams of sharing our words with the world…that is how it was supposed to go…

Even though we came from different upbringings, the connection that bonded us was indestructible…

So I thought…

That blowout way back when…the year we stubbornly never spoke…the inevitable apology that finally came…yet then and there is where we should’ve seen it, should’ve felt it…

In that moment our friendship died, our blind eyes remained ignorant to it, we slapped a band-aid on a gunshot wound hoping it would heal…

Since then we barely spoke, we barely hung out…two things we used to do all of the time…silence and static was our new relationship…

Recently we reconnected via online, me here in Rancho Cucamonga and you in Long Beach, merely 45 minutes away…there was something different about you though, but because it was You I ignored it…

Last week, that night it hit me, like a Southpaw hook…it’s different, You’re different because we are no longer in the same place in life…

During that silence and static we traveled down two different roads. I faced death, I faced my demons, I decided to change my life, I decided to live… You decided to stay stuck in your past, to continue to blame the world for your situation, to let your demons eat at your mind…

One moved on, the other didn’t…

That conversation, you could tell that I had moved forward, that I’ve changed, yet you seemed upset at me for doing so…

After that conversation I made a decision…

No matter how much I’ll always love you, no matter how much I’ll miss you, no matter how broken my heart will be… I have to let you go…

You are a familiar that is slowly pulling me back to a place I don’t want to revisit…

I’m so sorry A, but I have to let you go.

“I’ve got a song in my head you played me over the phone, left the light on upstairs, but there ain’t nobody home, all the nights that you end up all alone, remember to forget me…” -Blink 182

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