We haven’t found each other yet, but I hope we cross paths soon. The butterflies in my gut whisper to my scarred heart that we will, the pain in my chest whispers to my scarred mind that I need to light this kerosene dream of mine.
The dream of meeting you…falling in love with you…creating a family with you…creating a life with you…and being in our 80’s, sitting along side you on the front porch in our rocking chairs while reminiscing down those endless memories we made.
I am the girl that you’ll find sitting at the beach, hoodie and headphones, being lost within the thoughts of my broken brain while finding solace in the sight of the gently crashing waves.
Guarded? Yes… Anxiety? Yes… Scars, beaten & broken down? Yes to all… But it’s within the pain and dark I once lived in that has made the silent survivor that I am today.
I am flawed… Make mistakes… Become quiet when I’m sad or angry… But I continually grow…I apologize and learn from those mistakes.
My words may stumble from my lips from time to time, but the meaning embedded in them is honest. If I ever push away from you please know that it’s only because I stopped needing people a long time ago. Those in my life are there because I want them there, I rely on myself. I know that you’ll be the one person that I’ll not just want in my life, but also need and that scares me. So if I ever push you away while we are dating, please just hold on to me.
I vow to dance with you to our song every time it plays on the radio and kiss you in the rain. I vow to try and not hog the covers or take up all of the hot water in the shower. I vow to watch whatever sport you’re into and even root for your team, unless they’re playing against the Giants or Kings. Then its alls fair in love and sports.
And lastly, I am apologizing in advance for any time our kids act like sneaky little evil geniuses.
Love D xoxo
Our Playlist… Far Away by Nickelback, Your Arms Feel Like Home by 3DD, Home is such a Lonely Place by Blink 182, I’m Like a Lawyer With the Way I’m Always Trying to Get You Off (Me & You) by Fall Out Boy, Tear in my Heart by Twenty One Pilots, With or Without You by U2, I Don’t Want to Miss a Thing by Aerosmith, Here Without You by 3DD, I Miss You by Blink 182, Jet Pack Blues by Fall Out Boy, Bad Things by MGK…
And any songs you want to add 😉